Seems Like A Lifetime ...........

I know.....I know Its been a very long time since my last entry and I have my reasons behind it. Work and family has always been a priority in my Life. And for the past few months I learnt a lot of things about myself and my family.

I learnt from working for the National Day Project that I have a short temper that I have been suppressing for a very long time. And during that time working on the national day costumes, It all rose up to the surface and I blew up in anger and frustration like I hd never experienced before. I said and did many things that I was not proud of and the feeling of regret still lingers in my heart.

I know I neglected some of my closest friends whom I considered as family but I am thankful that they were understanding of my "disappearance" for the past months.

I try my best now to catch up with them as much as I could but sometimes work causes me to miss or reshcedule my appointments with them. In the Gay Life, our lifestyle are not like those of the hetrosexuals. There are things that we cannot share with our Straight friends or family. And in my case its worse. There is so many secrets I have to keep even from my Family. Things that I cannot confide to them. So the only place I turn for comfort are my Gay friends whom understands my dilemma and my pain.

In Life we must always give and take and tend to close one eye on certain matters of work or as they love to put it in my company," Jangan Mengira". Well to this all I can say is Yes but to what extend do I draw the line to this "give an take" issue. I am already tired of all the shortcomings of No1 Costume Costume Pte Ltd. There is so much one can take. And to the change of my work timing is where I draw the line. Its time I give these people a wake up call. Now I understand all the things that Maggie felt, the pain and anguish to the point that she just want to leave all of this behind her and move on. Sometimes I feel trapped and being misused over and over again.

Well if this Issue is not settled soon I will say my Goodbyes to them and move on with my Life also. I know my strengths . I know what I can achieve and do out there. I mean if someone loves you and cherish you they would know what to do to ensure that the person is happy and are not to be left out in the dark of what is happening to his jobscope and his future in the company. I know that I am being unfair by not informing the other party on the matter but how do I tell him or her when they are never around to listen?

So the only way is to go everything by the book and the laws set by the government. For the time being all I can do is wait and see.....................

Boredom is a killer sometimes

Been siting in my office for quite a while now.... after doing research since 9.30am in the morning, my eyes hurts and I get restless easily..... I have tons of research and design to do and complete by next week but I just do not have to mood to even do it right now. Tired of sitting around staring into the computer screen and cracking my brain as to how to come up with a new concept of design for Halloween. Tired of the mundane designs that is out there in the market and as the company only fashion costume designer that burden of revamping the company design standard to the next level fall heavily on my shoulders , a responsibility that I had accepted upon signing that contract with No1. Costume Coatume Pte Ltd.

The problem is not that I am tired of designing, its not that, I loved to design new things , Its just that when one put so much effort into it the head hurts . hahahahaahahaha.

I been reading and doing tons of research on all the various competitors in this type of line. I trying to ensure that as a designer , when people comes over and see the costume or items in the shop, they go, wow ! thats very nice. This is the reaction I want to target. But to achieve this, I must ensure that the costume company has all the items it needs to evolve into an international company. Haiz.........

Well no one said that being a designer is all glamorous..... its far from it. The thought of fame and glamour is always in ones mind but I know that in my line of work , as in costume, its hard to achieve recognition. Unless one is in the fashion Line then perhaps one has a shot at fame and glory....hahahaha

anyway will update you all on what I will be doing soon.........cya...........

Origin of the Gay Flag

Ever wonder what the Rainbow of the Gay Flag means? Heres a quote I took from http://www.gayprideneworleans.com/

All of the various celebrations throughout the world are unique; however, there is one common element: the gay pride or rainbow flag. This symbol was the creation of Gilbert Baker in response to local activists saying that the community needed a symbol of unity, and was unveiled during the San Francisco Gay and Lesbian Festival in 1978. Its design was actually inspired by the earlier black civil rights and "hippie" movements. And today, even the International Association of Flag Manufacturers has acknowledged the flag. The rainbow flag has become the most visible icon of the GLBT community, and is a symbol that is recognized worldwide. The community has united with pride, determination and diversity under its colors.

Each color of the flag was designed to have a different meaning:
RED - Life
ORANGE - Healing
YELLOW - Sun
GREEN - Nature
BLUE - Harmony
VIOLET - Spirit

something I got from FRIDAE.COM

On Internet Profiles:
When A Gay Man Says: I’m very discreet.
What He Means: I’m already attached.
When a gay man says: 'I’m open to experimentation,'
he really means: 'Don’t worry, there’s nothing I’ve never tried.'
When A Gay Man Says: I’m not in the scene.
What He Means: My reputation is so bad that I make the Whore Of Babylon appear like a nun.
When A Gay Man Says: I’m looking for someone who’s financially stable.
What He Means: Calling all Sugar Daddies!
When A Gay Man Says: I’m looking for chemistry not looks.
What He Means: I look exactly like William “She Bangs” Hung.

On Dating:
When A Gay Man Says: I’m looking for commitment.
What He Means: I’m sick of playing one-hand poker in the bathroom all the time.
When A Gay Man Says; I used to date girls.
What He Means: I’m a lesbian-in-rehab.
When A Gay Man Says: Oh puh-leeze! He’s so not my type.
What He Means: Dammit! Why won’t he sleep with me?
When A Gay Man Says: Do you want to go to a movie?
What He Means: Let’s go fondle each other in the dark.
When A Gay Man Says: Oh, no! I insist on paying for my share!
What He Means: This is just a test. There’s no way I’m going dutch you cheapskate.
When A Gay Man Says: I’ll give you a ring.
What He Means: I’d rather endure a blazing cattle prod up my arse than go out with you again.

On Relationships:
When A Gay Man Says: You’re the only man I’ve ever truly loved.
What He Means: You are the only guy left in the homo-verse who hasn’t rejected me yet.
When A Gay Man Says: It’s not you, it’s me.
What He Means: I’ve been sleeping around and I’ve finally found someone better than you.
When A Gay Man Says: Do you love me?
What He Means: I’ve had a fling and I’m worried you’ll find out soon.
When A Gay Man Says: Do you really love me?
What He Means: I’ve had a fling and it’s with your best friend.

On Breaking Up:
When A Gay Man Says: I like you, but…
What He Means: I don’t like you.
When A Gay Man Says: We need to take things one-step at a time.
What He Means: Sorry, but I’m holding out until I’m sure that Fabio look-a-like at the gym is straight.
When A Gay Man Says: Can’t we just be friends?
What He Means: There is no way in hell I’m ever going to sleep with you again.

On Sex:
When a gay man says: 'I’m open to experimentation,'
he really means: 'Don’t worry, there’s nothing I’ve never tried.
'When A Gay Man Says: Can I buy you a drink?
What He Means: I wanna sleep with you.
When A Gay Man Says: Do you come here often?
What He Means: I wanna sleep with you.
When A Gay Man Says: Didn’t we meet at (insert fictitious name)’s party last week?
What He Means: I wanna sleep with you.
When A Gay Man Says: Let’s not waste time.
What He Means: The last time I had sex, the Spice Girls were still hot.
When A Gay Man Says: I’m open to experimentation.
What He Means: Don’t worry, there’s nothing I’ve never tried.
When A Gay Man Says: I’m versatile.
What He Means: I’m a Legs-Up Lucy with delusions of being a top.
When A Gay Man Says: I don’t think two guys should jump into bed on their first date.
What He Means: I have a small penis.
When A Gay Men Says: I’m a grower, not a shower.
What He Means: I have a small penis.
When A Gay Man Says: I wish you would stop comparing me all your previous boyfriends…
What He Means: Are my bedroom skills really that pathetic?
When A Gay Man Says: Oh… (with a falling intonation)
What He Means: I’ve seen baby cocktail sausages bigger than this!
When A Gay Man Says: Oh!… (with a rising intonation)
What He Means: Slap me with that salami!

My visit to Powerhouse on 080407

Me and frens at the end of the nite ...met this guy whom we were dancing with at the club Play
New Friends whom we just met(actually they were friends of IAN)
Me and the boys............
He is so cute in pperson........ reminds me of those exotic dancers

That me and Joel
Frassier , Ian's collegue with Joel
Oh I was totally into this guy...he was one of the boys who serve shot drinks... I bought one and gave it to Kisha but not before I took a picture with him....

Thats me and Ian.....A.K.A .....Keri.........my best fren and one who I have considered my family....

Me and the gang...................................
Outside of Powerhouse at the entrance............. Fabulous.....just like Us........
Me poisng at the entrance of the club when I just came into the club..........

God !! The nite was so wonderful..........I loved it.......never had I danced so much and was so hyper and let loose...be myself and not have top worry abt what others think about me......... The nite started late as usual.... Ian was late and so we only came in at about 11pm.........

We started drinking early.......and get a little high........at first I was left aside while the rest went to the dance floor.......I was so pissed!!!! I just sat down and was just looking at guys passing by our table.......I met my working collegue and his boyfren........Franciss and David.....

Then as we ordered more drinks, we get more drunk and more sluty and physical........ and before I knew it, I could not even walk straight to the toilet..........oh my God! so embarrassed.....thinking about it now makes me blush..... I kissed guys I should not have.... Taken shots I should not have...touched body parts I should not have touched.........hahahahahaI just cannot believe what I did that nite......... but hey if I were to do it again... I would make sure I bring a guy along.......so I can get down to some sexy action on the dance floor..........

The boys who serve the shots drinks were hunky but the malay guy had a slight tummy and a bit of a turn off...

I was a bit sorry for him though..........

I bought a shot from a guy whom I thought was a chinese but he was a malay.......... He is so hot!!!! I could just touch all of him all day and nite long....... his picture is above...standing next to me grinning... He is straight and not available..... ........hai married guys can get divorce...engaged can break off....Girlfren and take a hike... I meant if he had wanted me to help him to " relax" I would have gladly do anything for him....

But hey I was tipsy and all thoughts flew out of the window...... anyway we ended the nite but having lots of fun on the dance floor till our legs gave way......... Had a weird incident though as one of my fren had a weird breakdown in the middle of the dance floor.........she was crying.......almost gave me a heart attack.........

hehehehe.......

I was dancing like a crazy guy..... jumping around and head banging to the music and beat....surrounded by so many goodlooking gay guys.......haiz.....can't wait for my next gay nite out......... :-)

Hope you all had a great week ahead.........

results

just a little quiz I took

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http://www.seductiveshorts.com/#goods/quiz

Recollecting memories of Fun

Last Saturday, I went down to meet some frens of mine and we went to a club called "Play" . Its located at the same venue of the previous club Happy. At first I was a bit lazy to go as I dun really enjoyed myself during my previous visits to gay clubs. But somehow, yesterday felt different......or it could be the Bacardi that my friend Ian brought along. We all sat down at Maxwell Market to have some light refreshments to ease up before going into the club. The door bitch was sweet, the bouncer was a bit of a scary uncle while the door boy was this cute innocent looking Malay guy.......awwww which I had taken a picture of him...ahahaha....

We went in at about 11.30pm so the crowd was quite ok and we managed to maneuver ourself to a table and we sat down to have our second round of drinks. Then we head for the dance floor. At first it was quite empty but after we joined in the crowd suddenly grew so big...... and we were practically dancing closely to the crowd. Then as the music got a bit boring we went to go fro more drinks and we chilled at a spot near the restroom.... a very strategic place to look at guys as its between the passage from the entrance and also a a passage heading to the restroom. We saw so many drop dead gorgeous guys and we were pratically ogling at them. Ian met so many of his friends there and we were acquainted with some of them. They are a nice bunch. Then Kisha got more drunk and was practically touching all the cute guys that passed by us. Some were nice and introduced themselves , some were just used to it and ignored us.

But before we left the club, we head to the dance floor for Our final Showdown and boy did we rock it good. I was a bit tipsy and I was dancing like a man not a gay sister. I was trying to portray a guy "look"...... so weird as it caught some guys attention but I just act like I did not notice them..... Most of them I had came across their profile at either Fridae or Guys4Men.com. but hey I was not putting up much hope so I will leave it at that. Met some very nice guys ............and took some pictures but won't upload it here.....maybe on another entry soon.........cya..............