Conflict in my Heart

It comes once in Everyone's Life , when you start to Think about One's Life and starts to take charge of Ones Life.... In other words ... the Biological Clock is Ticking.... I am just like any other Guy out there who Yearns to Find his very own Fairytale of Life .... meet Someone ... Falls in Love ... Have a Beautiful Wedding....  a Royal Ball Celebration..... Goes on Whirlwind Explore of the World ... Start a Family.... and spent the Rest of our Life Together till Our Last Breath......

I am a Hopeless Romantic .......... and after all the Pain and Suffering that I went through in Life... all the Loss........ Is it Selfish of me to Yearn for Happiness in my Life before my Last Breath.........?

If Evil can love then What is evil?
If love is what makes you human, then evil can still be human..........

And I am merely Human... not an Angel nor am I a Demon .......... I yearn to be Love too...

Perhaps I made the Greatest Mistake of Letting you Go A Long time Ago... I should never have Gave up on you my Dear .........gave up on Us....

Update on My Life

Its the Year 2012 and my last entry was August 2009......... three years has passed...... Lets recapped yeah..

October 2009
- Established Costume D'Amour in Singapore
- Worked with Barbara on Many Events...

April 2010
- Established The Secret Closet Sdn Bhd.

June 2010
- I moved to Kuala Lumpur Malaysia, stayed at Anggunpuri Condominium

October 2010
- First Boutique at Damansara Perdana

 December 2010
- I got my First Big break with Media Hiburan.
- Company slowly became recognised in Malaysia....

January 2011
- Road trip to Kedah and then To Langkawi

February 2011
- Trip to Thailand With Parents ( Mum's Last Holiday)

March to July 2011

- Company involved in lots of Sponsorship, making The Secret  Closet Sdn Bhd known with most Media in KL from Radio Station ( Hot FM) to Magazines ( KarangKraf) to Media Prima ( TV 3)  to RTM( Diva).

August 2011
- Fasting Month (mum Puasa penuh sebulan)
-We went to many buka Puasa together......
- Company had financial Issues....

2nd September 2011
- We went to Melaka to Celebrate 1st day of Hari Raya
- Mum was showing signs of sickness..
- We return to SG in the middle of the night ....

3rd September 2011( Its My 30th Birthday)
- Mum got really sick in the early morning , We sent to Hospital.... She HAD STROKE !!!
- I was devastated and breakdown...... It was the start of my Downfall....
- We stayed for whole month in Singapore....

October 2011
- returned to KL ...mum recovering very slowly.
- Mum Condition not improving... Pampers... Medicine.. Bed Bound

December 2011
- Mom was hospitalised for 2 weeks.....

 20 January 2012
- Mum name Fell from the Heavenly Tree.... (100 days countdown)

 20 March 2012
- Mum condition Slowly gets worse (40 days countdown)

27th April 2012
- Mum has no appetite to eat at all.....

28th April 2012
- Mum Passed Away at KL General Hospital
- I was so SHOCKED and DEVASTATED I almost had a heart attacked....

29th April 2012
- Mum was buried at Taman Samudera Batu Caves, lot 309A......
- My Life is Shattered and I hated myself so much that I wished I had DIED too.....
-Family members came from Melaka and Singapore..... I was still in Shock

5th May 2012
- Tahlil for Mum's Passing 7th Day.....

This Is just a Record of the Things that Happened to me for the Year 2011 and 2012.........
2012 will definitely be a depressing year for me....... I have still not gotten over the Shock.. Everyday I have chest pains and it gets worse....... I missed mum, missed her Voice and missed kissing her cheeks.....
May God forgive me for feeling this way...............

22-05-2012 A New Page and a New Beginning

Its been Ages since My last entry on Blogspot..... too many things had happened and I think I will recapped it in my future entries so That the Past shall never be forgotten.......
The Future is now in my Hands.......what I will do to it is my own bidding....